A little bump here and there
There’s so many things I’ve been wanting to do for a long while now, but I’ve let a pretty bumpy year get the best of me. I’m human, and not perfect, sometimes things bring me down too. My outlet to de-stress used to be games for the most part, but since starting Youtube I rarely have time to play things to just to chill / unwind. That’s not to say I don’t have fun recording games for YouTube, I just miss out on so much stuff that I’d normally just geek out about by myself with no commentary or anything to de-stress. For example, I still haven’t played more than an hour of The Witcher 3 when I was so hyped about it. One short term goal I have is to make sure that I don’t let that happen to Fallout 4, I need to play it.
I do want to say though that this whole journey on Youtube has ultimately become one of the proudest achievements in my life. I've put everything I have into it, and pushed through so many challenges along the way like doubt, and near endless uncertainty. Way before I could even call this a job I just loved hearing how just watching me play and have fun with something brought a smile to your face, or made you think a little bit less about something that was stressing you out. I know that my content can vary quite a bit with all of the different games I play, and with friends swapping in and out often, etc. but it’s so awesome to know that you guys always have my back as we experience this journey together.
With that said, I really do need to find a way to find some balance, and pick myself back up as I’ve been feeling a bit down for a while. There were a lot of bumps in the road that I didn’t anticipate surrounding the move, and even when the move stuff was mostly taken care of it felt like a bunch of other things fell off track. I’m trying to fix that, but there are some things with dependencies that I have little control of. Still, I’ve been doing my best, and while I might not have the solution to all of the challenges just yet I’ve always been strong, and adaptive.
No matter what though I always want you guys to know how much I appreciate you. For some of the very difficult things I’ve had to go through in the past (I’ve shared a few bits), and even with some things still on my plate in the present (maybe one day I’ll do a draw my life to go into more), having had the chance to experience all of this in my life has been a true blessing that I will be forever grateful for. Seriously, it is still hard to believe how far we’ve come.
So to all of you out there that have been here for me thank you all so much for supporting who I am, and what I do, and for helping me work towards what’s essentially a dream. I care so much about this community, and I feel like every day I get to know more and more of you a little better as I read your comments, tweets, emails, and everything else. I may not have met you in person, but I’ve come to know many familiar names and faces over the years. Remember that I read almost everything, even if I can’t always respond.
Again, thank you for everything, I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
